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I know some of my lady friends just groaned at the sight of this title.  Every woman has had one of these moments in her life.  This is mine:

So there was this kid, about 8 years my junior and we were secretly dating.  We secretly dated for almost two years and I knew it wasn’t going anywhere.  He was a different culture, different breed, a whole n’other level that I wasn’t quite willing or ready to get into.  I wanted to enjoy him for what it was when we first met, but two years go by and you know the “where-are-we-going” questions begin.  Instead of facing those questions, I decided it was time to move on.  I let him be.  We agreed to remain friends – he’s on my Facebook but I’d hardly call him a “friend” any longer – and we went our separate ways.  Well, as separate as our physical connection could allow.  We met a few times here and there just to satiate the “one last goodbye” thing and then he met another girl, because I basically forced him to go on and live.  Then Heather Headley sang this and I needed ANOTHER “one last goodbye.”   In my mind, I’ll always be his girl.  Still.  Because I’m a controlling freak bitch.

Watch here…

“In My Mind”

Imagine seeing him on the town
Holding another hand
She’s starin’ me down,
So I figure that he told her who I am.
But it don’t matter either way,
What they do or say cause ain’t nothin’ changed.
He’s standing with her, but his soul is calling out my name.

In my mind, I’ll always be his lady.
In my mind, I’ll always be his girl.

Saw his momma just the other day,
Said he’d been through a spell.
Had a bad break up, thinks he’s on his way up, it’s hard to tell.
She said I think it’d do some good if you called him every now and then.
You see he’s been through some things and I’m thinking he could really use a friend.

In my mind, I’ll always be his lady.
In my mind, I’ll always be his girl.
Only time can tell if I’m his lady.
But in my mind, I’ll always be his girl.

They say if you love something, you’ve got to let it go.
And if it comes back, then it means so much more.
But if it never does, at least you will know,
That it was something you had to go through to grow.

In my mind, I’ll always be his lady.
In my mind, I’ll always be his girl.
Only time will tell if I’m his lady.
But in my mind, I’ll always be his girl.

Always feel this way about ya,
Always be your lady,
In my heart, in my mind.
In my heart, in my mind.
In my soul, in my mind.
Baby you should know,
You’re in my thoughts, in my mind.
You’re in my prayers, in my mind.
I’ll always keep you there.