I feel like you’d soothe my soul. You’d console me and make me feel better and you’d touch me without even touching me. You’d lay with me and stroke me and touch my hair, and you’d play with my curls. You’d look into my eyes and you’d stay there, quiet, feeling my need for peace. And you’d let my tears fall, and wouldn’t try to wipe them away because you know I don’t want you to wipe them. I just want you to acknowledge them. And you do. You acknowledge them silently. And you watch my ears puddle up with tears but you don’t wipe them. You wait until I turn my head and let the tears fall out while I look up into your eyes and then I close them again and settle back into position.
And you cuddle me with just enough space for me to breathe because you know I can’t be smothered, you know I need my space.
But at that moment, I need you. And I know you would do this.
And you know not to say anything because I don’t want to hear anything. I don’t want any noise or any sounds or anything getting in the way of this moment of ours, even though it’s really only my moment and I’m just allowing you to be in it.
And I know you’d inhale with my deep breaths and you’d exhale with my sighs. And that alone would be enough to just soothe me.
I know if you were here, you’d just soothe me. And that’s all I need right now.